you saw how this heart of mine gets all excited when 'sot' was being mentioned yet a little discourage and fearful at the same time.. wow come to think about it, almost 10 yrs ago I dreamt of going to bible school and now indeed you have given me the opportunity to let it become a reality.

Many questions came into my mind.. doubts, fear.. God I am not a very well-spoken person. You know how I feared the subject on 'art of preaching' etc.. and to go in with potential cgl makes me feel a little inferior. God I know time is running out and I ought to make a choice very soon. I know and surely you do too, that if I go sot, my whole life would be changed from inside out. This is my desire Lord. Not only do I need but wants a complete change of my life. So many times, I am tempted to withdraw but I know you are consistently calling and guiding me back. God, I am tired of tossing around. Help me to stand firm and strong. I need you Lord!!

As long as I'm willing to open and listen, you would surely speak to me through your ever lasting Word. Today you showed me how Abram simple trust in your word about having a son of his own.. a simple faith God you counted him for righteous. People may mocked at him having a son at old age but he chose to trust in you. And you too also showed me that there's nothing you can't do. Even 5 loafs and 2 fishes, you are able to feed the 5 thousand. Indeed what's little, when it's placed at the hands of my Master, it would multiply much..

surely relatives and people may be shocked, surprised if they know about my decision in going sot. It may be a waste of time to them but I know I'm not. Daddy, I am in need of confirmation about it. I pray you would tell me it's the right season for me to go, that everything would turn out fine for me..I need the provision Lord.

Daddy, today once again, I saw that gal.. the one whom I saw in your eyes. I want to be the gal.. the one you want me to be. My heart is crying out to you, help me to walk in love and be all that you design me to be. I want to care for others because Daddy you have 1st loves me. I want to be that gal who works hard to provide my family a better living because you have been my provider all this while. Yes this gal whom I saw in the spirit is a gentle in spirit and is filled with wisdom and wise in her tongue. Daddy.. help me to walk with you in love, a child who holds her dad's hand everywhere he goes. This year one of my wish is that I want to grow to be more spiritual mature in thinking, strong and be responsible in every task entrusted to me.. inwardly a humble.. faith-believing ever relying child towards you. I want to grow to be a healthy person, from inside out. Only you have the ability to transform me. Break every curses and bandages that may be holding me God. I set my heart to wholly follow after You. I know it's risky and difficult. Help me Lord to once again, go through the calm or Stormy weather with you