Daddy..

why is it so hard to walk in the path you want me to walk upon? why is it human find it tough to trust but believe base on what was in the past? Is it true, God, is it true that a leaper never changes it's spots? I don't know and I understand fully why human does that. But I know you. You are the One who changes lives.

God though the tone and the faces doesn't show but Dad you know my heart is crying silently. Dad, I have been trying to find ways and courage to go SOT. Finally today I submitted the application form online but just to find out it's hard to get recommendation forms. Dad, how? I always believe that Dad if it's your will for me to go, surely you would open doors for me, doors that no one can shut. Daddy, somehow I feel empty within. I dare not say I have given my very best but Dad I am trying hard. Daddy, I do not want my leader to be caught in the spot. How dad? Am I able? Am I able to go through SOT safely? It's all in your Hands Lord..

whatever maybe maybe.. Daddy prepare me for such a day to come. Today my cousin knew about it and she threw me tons of questions about it. Dad, I still remember it was my wish back then to go SOT when I was 13. Am I able to fulfill this dream in my lifetime? The world may be against that idea, thinking I may not be up to it. Daddy, all I need is your word of assurance, you alone filled up those empty void... Dad, hold me in your arms of love. Restore the disappointment I had towards myself with your love and assurance of your never dying faith in me..